Statements you have mentioned in this thread:
A ) You don't feel passionate when you create. /
B ) But at the same time you go out to "report" on your every move. /
C ) But at the same time you always have a reason/excuse for every thing other people pick out to justify yourself. /
D ) Everything you do here is for Idea and Dedication
A and B are mutually exclusive: If you don't care, then you won't put the effort of doing both.
B and D are mutually exclusive for the same reason.
If A and D are both true, then you don't love a thing that's personal for yourself, but you insist on spreading it upon others... That's kinda like infecting AIDS on other people? (Pushing something you love on others I can understand. Pushing something you don't though is quite frankly offensive.
If B and C are both true, you are essentially just showing off and don't actually care about other opinions, even though you phrase them as questions and reports.
Only C+D are mutually supportive: You must love your "child" so that anything they do can be excused, and you are proud of it enough that you want to show it off.
>It is exactly like what all first time creators do:
You created something.
You are proud of it.
You think it is perfect.
And you want to show the world how perfect it is.
But the world, in general, see it as just another Heartbreaker with weird mechanics that really doesn't make much sense, unless they have the exact same
unique perspective and design goals as you do.
And you don't agree with that POV.
So you find every excuse you can come up with to refute that, expecting that eventually people would "see the light" and prefer yours over others.
When core materials are unattractive, you think loving it twice as much and people would love it just because
of your passion alone
, instead of focusing on how to make it more lovable by the general public
And in turn, your behaviour actually makes people think you
are entertaining, and less people actually care about your work then before. It is a twisted and bad thing on the audience's part, but that's typical human behaviour to jeer on... Not just bad stuffs, but also not completely great stuffs, and incomplete stuffs for that matter..
But if you stop, people would forget you and your game in a week.
So its kinda a vicious cycle now: Your personal resource on making the game better and your passion is being sapped, and the image of your game to the general audience is not getting any improvement. Actually the image might be getting worse because the creator is shown to be an excuse-guy instead of a solution-guy.
You keep doing the same thing, and it won't make your game, or your situation, any better. Just saying.
Not like any other people would bring you out of this, I get that too; Been there, done that, got the T-shirt and the souvenir plate.
This is a very common
thing, as I've said before.
And also, just a personal thing, that might not help with making the game directly:
Be more honest with your passion.
It's okay to love what you make, even if nobody else do.
If you ain't trying to make it popular, other people's opinions ain't really matter anyhow. And you get more energy you can put into refining your game if you cut the effort on showing it off and defending it constantly.
Feel free to ignore this, as I always say.